[...he stares. Waking up, and not knowing what happened..."someone else wearing my face"...
Those blackouts sound familiar.
It's his own hands that move closer, this time, across the table. The other Yugi sincerely does not care if that shadowy aura's dangerous. He's gonna get up in Ryou's space a little anyways, fully on his feet now.
The other Yugi doesn't consider what he did to be "causing trouble." He'd taken care of trouble! But even so, he remembers how frightened his other self had been...how scared he'd been of the blackouts, of his new friends leaving him when they found out, how he'd tried to hold the other Yugi back because he was scared of him...that had been difficult enough.
Ryou coming back to himself with the people around him angry instead of safe? The other Yugi can't even imagine living like that. That would have been terrible. To have not a friend in your heart, but an enemy...that kind of thing would definitely make someone look at him with the kind of fear the other Yugi's seeing.
With sympathy, and more gentleness than he's shown up till now:]
...having to live with someone else in your head, who caused trouble for you that you couldn't remember...that must have been hard, Bakura.
[Even though he's coming at it from the other side...he remembers Yugi's feelings. He's sympathetic to this.]
And it's even harder that some people here met him first, so they assume that appearance is him, not you. But that doesn't make him deserving of it. It's not a matter of deserving to be the one who looks like you because he ended up in Bavan first. Your face is your face.
[My face isn't my face. That feels true. This is Yugi's face. And if he's not Yugi...if he's something that came out of the Puzzle...then... He pushes that away.]
You've had to fight to have an identity here, haven't you? And another you around has made that harder. Harder to be you, separate from him.
[And because of that...Ryou's had trouble not just fading into the background. He feels like someone else already has his life, and he's not confident enough to reach out and take it back -- to fight for being Ryou, not the other Ryou. To fight the idea that only one of them gets to live life as them at a time.
...yeah okay he's definitely going to get in Ryou's space here, look right at him, directly in the glowing eyes.]
But I can see you. Right? I know you're here! You're someone who writes to his family, who puts other people before himself, and who's gonna put together a TTRPG table with me. You might have memories from other lives, and it's true that those might affect the way you feel about some things. But that's okay!
Those memories are a part of you. Not all of you -- but a piece. Things don't have to be "real" to be a part of us. Our dreams, the things we want, the things we dread...those aren't "real," they never happened. But they matter! They affect who we are, and what we do, and we're not less "us" because we have them.
It sounds like you could use a hand figuring out the rest, though. You want the part of you that's not dreams or fears, the part that's Ryou Bakura, to be stronger, don't you? Harder to push into the background, harder to overshadow.
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Those blackouts sound familiar.
It's his own hands that move closer, this time, across the table. The other Yugi sincerely does not care if that shadowy aura's dangerous. He's gonna get up in Ryou's space a little anyways, fully on his feet now.
The other Yugi doesn't consider what he did to be "causing trouble." He'd taken care of trouble! But even so, he remembers how frightened his other self had been...how scared he'd been of the blackouts, of his new friends leaving him when they found out, how he'd tried to hold the other Yugi back because he was scared of him...that had been difficult enough.
Ryou coming back to himself with the people around him angry instead of safe? The other Yugi can't even imagine living like that. That would have been terrible. To have not a friend in your heart, but an enemy...that kind of thing would definitely make someone look at him with the kind of fear the other Yugi's seeing.
With sympathy, and more gentleness than he's shown up till now:]
...having to live with someone else in your head, who caused trouble for you that you couldn't remember...that must have been hard, Bakura.
[Even though he's coming at it from the other side...he remembers Yugi's feelings. He's sympathetic to this.]
And it's even harder that some people here met him first, so they assume that appearance is him, not you. But that doesn't make him deserving of it. It's not a matter of deserving to be the one who looks like you because he ended up in Bavan first. Your face is your face.
[My face isn't my face. That feels true. This is Yugi's face. And if he's not Yugi...if he's something that came out of the Puzzle...then... He pushes that away.]
You've had to fight to have an identity here, haven't you? And another you around has made that harder. Harder to be you, separate from him.
[And because of that...Ryou's had trouble not just fading into the background. He feels like someone else already has his life, and he's not confident enough to reach out and take it back -- to fight for being Ryou, not the other Ryou. To fight the idea that only one of them gets to live life as them at a time.
...yeah okay he's definitely going to get in Ryou's space here, look right at him, directly in the glowing eyes.]
But I can see you. Right? I know you're here! You're someone who writes to his family, who puts other people before himself, and who's gonna put together a TTRPG table with me. You might have memories from other lives, and it's true that those might affect the way you feel about some things. But that's okay!
Those memories are a part of you. Not all of you -- but a piece. Things don't have to be "real" to be a part of us. Our dreams, the things we want, the things we dread...those aren't "real," they never happened. But they matter! They affect who we are, and what we do, and we're not less "us" because we have them.
It sounds like you could use a hand figuring out the rest, though. You want the part of you that's not dreams or fears, the part that's Ryou Bakura, to be stronger, don't you? Harder to push into the background, harder to overshadow.