knifemonopoly: (i've got fire in my soul)
̷A̷t̷e̷m̷ ([personal profile] knifemonopoly) wrote in [personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2021-04-22 02:12 pm (UTC)

cw some real weird body dysphoria

[His mind's a little blown, that someone else knew there was another heart inside of Yugi, someone from his future who he doesn't remember. Noa suspected, but that was because Noa datamined his memories. He wasn't...told. Or shown.

He feels a little exposed, a little more seen than he thought he was before, and to someone very used to controlling what's known about him, it's a little frightening! But also...

...comforting? That he's known. That Bakura knew he was there, and they were still friends. Bakura is someone he chose to be friends with, and that means...there's trust.

What he's feeling is new, but bone-deep, trust. There's a queer thrill to it, like stepping out onto an invisible bridge, or reaching into a box you can't see into.
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If you knew about me, then we must have been close friends after all!

...

I'm glad.

The only other person who knows I'm...not the only one who's called Yugi...is Noa. He saw us, but he doesn't understand. Not really. He doesn't know...how hard it is to be separated...to suddenly be alone in your heart, for the first time you can remember...

[Ryou had a harder relationship with his...spirit? Is that what beings like him are called? --than Yugi and the other Yugi did. But he mentioned that it was hard on him for them to be apart, even if it had often been bad when they were together...

So, if anyone's going to understand how terribly alone he feels, it's Ryou. If anyone's going to recognize the hollow loneliness that creeps into the other Yugi's voice, it's him. He realized he couldn't trade places with his other self while Jounouchi was here, in February, and that had made it a little easier, and then all of his friends had become a part of him, and even if that had been painful, it had made him feel less incomplete for a while.

But they didn't stay. And here he is, alone in a body that's not even his, that's dead. It's a little sick, isn't it, that he's puppeteering Yugi's dead body, without him? That's how he feels, when there's nothing to ground him in his own flesh. If he's not Yugi, then he's a ghost in someone else's machine.

It must be hard for Ryou, too. To go from being the one the body belonged to....to being the ghost.
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