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Ryou Bakura ([personal profile] softspokenlandlord) wrote2020-11-18 01:10 am

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<WhiteWizard> Hello, this is Ryou Bakura!
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knifemonopoly: (i've got fire in my soul)

cw some real weird body dysphoria

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2021-04-22 02:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[His mind's a little blown, that someone else knew there was another heart inside of Yugi, someone from his future who he doesn't remember. Noa suspected, but that was because Noa datamined his memories. He wasn't...told. Or shown.

He feels a little exposed, a little more seen than he thought he was before, and to someone very used to controlling what's known about him, it's a little frightening! But also...

...comforting? That he's known. That Bakura knew he was there, and they were still friends. Bakura is someone he chose to be friends with, and that means...there's trust.

What he's feeling is new, but bone-deep, trust. There's a queer thrill to it, like stepping out onto an invisible bridge, or reaching into a box you can't see into.
]

If you knew about me, then we must have been close friends after all!

...

I'm glad.

The only other person who knows I'm...not the only one who's called Yugi...is Noa. He saw us, but he doesn't understand. Not really. He doesn't know...how hard it is to be separated...to suddenly be alone in your heart, for the first time you can remember...

[Ryou had a harder relationship with his...spirit? Is that what beings like him are called? --than Yugi and the other Yugi did. But he mentioned that it was hard on him for them to be apart, even if it had often been bad when they were together...

So, if anyone's going to understand how terribly alone he feels, it's Ryou. If anyone's going to recognize the hollow loneliness that creeps into the other Yugi's voice, it's him. He realized he couldn't trade places with his other self while Jounouchi was here, in February, and that had made it a little easier, and then all of his friends had become a part of him, and even if that had been painful, it had made him feel less incomplete for a while.

But they didn't stay. And here he is, alone in a body that's not even his, that's dead. It's a little sick, isn't it, that he's puppeteering Yugi's dead body, without him? That's how he feels, when there's nothing to ground him in his own flesh. If he's not Yugi, then he's a ghost in someone else's machine.

It must be hard for Ryou, too. To go from being the one the body belonged to....to being the ghost.
]
Edited 2021-04-22 14:31 (UTC)
knifemonopoly: (they sing and dance oh ey oh)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2021-04-30 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[The other Yugi nods at that first part, understanding.

He does feel like Yugi is more important than he'll ever be. When the other Yugi awoke, he knew what he was alive for, what he was here to do, and that was to protect Yugi and what he cared about.

He'd been happy, when he was able to do that.

But, now, he's not even Yugi. He's something else, and it's only the acceptance he felt during Death-T that keeps him from feeling like an interloper.

Does he want to know about himself...?

He's honestly not sure. Adam's memories are still pressing close on his mind, interfering with his sense of self...how many 'him's is he going to end up with?

So, the other Yugi asks the practical question:
]

How much do you know? About me.
knifemonopoly: (slide your feet up the street)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2021-05-02 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
M-my name...?

[He has a name.

He has a name, and it's not "Yugi". If the other Yugi still had a heartbeat, it'd be thrumming in his ears. As it is, he just feels dizzy. He's glad he's sitting down! The prospect of being named, named as someone not-Yugi, feels...

It feels big, and he's not certain why. Can't put his finger on it.

It must be because he's still wound up, from the confrontation with Daniel. The difference between Adam and the Yugi of darkness who punished the man who'd tortured and killed him is uncomfortable, like two puzzle pieces that don't quite fit together. His mind feels like a live wire, raw and exposed. Does he want to know more? Does he want to know now? If he doesn't hear about it now, will he miss his chance to learn it if Ryou, god forbid, disappears?

....while he doesn't want Ryou to go anywhere, the other Yugi, very guiltily, wouldn't mind not having to know more about what makes him distinct from Yugi Mutou. He doesn't want to be distinct. He liked being Yugi.

But as long as Ryou's here, the other Yugi can't turn his back on the truth. He can't pretend he never found this out. So, he chooses his next question carefully, to assuage at least one of the worries the conversation with Noa had left him with. He raises his eyes to Ryou's.
]

...if I am not Yugi, then what am I?
knifemonopoly: (they sing and dance oh ey oh)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2021-05-02 04:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Then I'm some kind of ghost...?

[That's what it sounds like. The ghost of a pharaoh, who sealed darkness away...

...someone who definitively isn't Yugi Mutou.

God, thinking that feels so lonely. But Ryou's description doesn't feel off: seeing the best, and the worst, and punishing evil...the only part he's not sure about is forming bonds with others. Hah. That's Yugi's specialty -- he makes such good friends, because he's always ready to trust someone new, always eager to play, always prepared to step in for someone who needs help...

The other Yugi picks the de-powered Puzzle up by its cord and looks at it. If there's any vehicle for how the pharaoh's ghost came to possess the Japanese teenager, it's got to be this.
]

I must have been in here a really long time, to have forgotten everything.

[It's easier to be a little bit sassy about it than to sink into loneliness.]
knifemonopoly: (I keep him forever)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2021-05-04 03:45 pm (UTC)(link)
It's certainly not a trivial fact!

[He is upset about it. He's got it together, he's not, like, losing his temper or his composure, but...

But it feels like a part of himself is lost. Something's been taken away, something he wasn't ready to let go of. He can't look away from the truth, shutting his eyes to it is foolish, but...!

He doesn't want to be the Nameless Pharaoh. He wants to be a part of Yugi, a strong part that can protect him and his friends from anything bad. He wants to be there for them, no matter what! He doesn't feel complete like this; he feels adrift.

Thank god Ryslig is a shadow game, and he has something to focus on, a goal. If he didn't, and he were just here, with an empty heart and no hope...he doesn't know what he'd do. But finding his way to the end, discovering the win condition...that's his anchor.
]

Do you think it'd be okay if I went by "Yugi" a little longer?

I'm not ready to let go of that, yet. Even if I have a different name...I want to keep being "another Yugi," for now.
knifemonopoly: (don't remember what you're asking for)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2021-05-05 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
[Funny throwback joke?

Totally works.


The other Yugi brightens, lets out a real chuckle. The serious mood fades back, and the loneliness eases up; after all, he's got a friend right here in front of him, doesn't he?]

No -- one successful board game haunting was quite enough for me. But something else could be fun!

[Although, since Ryou's willing to make throwback jokes...]

While we're on the subject of names, though -- are you and I familiar enough for me to call you Ryou? I won't if it'd bother you, of course! But it feels like that's what I'm used to.
knifemonopoly: (then you pull it back)

[personal profile] knifemonopoly 2021-05-06 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[He smiles. Okay! Okay, good.]

All right, then.

Well, Ryou, I'm afraid I don't have much more here than a deck of cards and some dice, but if you'd like to play something ordinary, and not-haunted...

[He's down if you're down. He's learned all of Ryslig's native card games, thanks to the other-world. They both know them!]