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softspokenlandlord) wrote2020-11-18 01:10 am
softspokenlandlord) wrote2020-11-18 01:10 am
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Ryou's unfortunately making very solid points. ]
Tch, "accept what you can't control" would never work, you're too much like me. If I'd been the one in those damned fucking dice -[ he's never getting over that little incident ]- I'd have done the same. damn. thing. Tch! Why'd you think I started handling you so fucking carefully after that?
[ Spoilers, Ryou: that treatment? Was the Ring-Spirit being (some degree of) careful. Him being cavalier would have been so, SO much worse. ]
...Ugh. [ What's left? He's half thinking aloud at this point. ] So you don't turn something off, you add something else, reroute your focus? ...Would Monster World help?
[ The swan turns his full attention back on Ryou. ]
I've got the rulebook, and I've got a laptop with the modifier calculations shit, character sheet recording, basically everything - except the table. I'm saving coins towards getting ours - or. yours, whatever - from Mana, but that'll take a while. Think we could build one from scratch?
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He's not sure if he's ready to broach it yet though.]
I don't...
[Sigh.]
Monster World is something I miss, something I want. And of course I can build something, but it won't have the versatility--look. Just. Hold on a second.
[He shakes his head.]
I know this sounds ridiculous coming from me, the guy who kept playing games even when it meant it was enabling the darkness, but. Is...that really all you and Yugi can think about? I mean it, it's not an insult. I'm asking sincerely.
[The effort to redirect is appreciated, but probably isn't going in the direction that the Ring-Spirit wanted it to.]
1/? (RS can hide IC'ly behind a swan-face, but *I* have *icons*)
He's worked with nothing plenty of times before though. Gotta just keep going. He shakes his head to Ryou's question. ]
Can't speak for Yugi - he's your little friend, not mine - but I try not to think at all. Games are great as distractions, but anything will work if you pour enough effort into it.
2/?
Shit gets boring without games. ...It's. Everything sucks, why not turn what you can into a game? Tch.
3/?
Look, you said it yourself, life isn't fun. Games are. The entire concept of "roleplaying" is supposed to bridge that gap between simply ~being~ and playing a game. I don't - if you could be playing a game instead, why focus on the shit you hate? It won't get less shitty, and you won't start hating it any less either!
[ Just play Monster World instead, landlord!
The Ring-Spirit growls out of sheer frustration.
Why?! Why this?? Why not just IGNORE the problems? ]
I don't understand what you're trying to do here!
4/5
He doesn't want to understand, but he does.
And if he's like this, it's - ok lets be real here, he saw that shade-tantrum, Ryou's not doing good. Especially after that idiot priest got on his case.
The Ring-Spirit isn't sure how bad, exactly, things are, but. ...Ryou is more fragile than he is. Ryou hasn't dealt with the shit the Ring-Spirit has, Ryou isn't ancient, Ryou's not any measure of god, evil or otherwise - the Ring-Spirit can survive more damage than his landlord, it's just facts right. So... he should intervene somehow, redirect. Keep his fragile host (ex-host) in one piece for another day, at the cost of just a little more pain. Same principle as taking the dragon's attack, right?
How though. ]
What do I do, fuck.
[ He knows he doesn't need Ryou at this point. He's... just attached, he doesn't want to give up anything he sees as his. A while ago he would have needed to justify this way more to himself. He's the Darkness, after all - the Great Evil God... and the Thief-King was honestly more of a misanthrope - but after getting his village back (even if only "sorta"), and losing them again... He doesn't want to give up anything else.
That's all.
Getting his village back, and then the whispering. They whispered for days. Words. Sentences. Shit he didn't want to listen to. Shit he didn't need to think about. Anything and everything - whatever it'd take to MAKE him consume them.
And since he couldn't, he sat there and listened. And then lost them again anyway.
He doesn't know what to do, but he also doesn't want to lose anyone else. Not... right now.
...Not ever.
The fuck does he do. ]
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This one freezes for a bit, staring and unresponsive. But he's done this before and (sorta) comes to again quickly enough, even if he's still a bit thousand-yard-stare-ish. ]
...I'm not helping here...
[ That determined, he turns to swim away, only to realize that there's no one else here, should he leave Ryou here alone or - he turns back again, swimming in a circle, before he decides that no really he isn't being helpful and turns to swim away again, only - you get the idea.
So now the Ring-Spirit is now uselessly circling and circling in the water, his breathing erratic, his thoughts are stuck in a loop.
It'll pass. Eventually, probably. ]
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Yes, there were words in there, but Ryou has a feeling that in trying to be "helpful" the Ring-Spirit's just gotten himself bothered. And...Ryou hates that he actually feels some kind of bad for him.]
Look, listen. We process things differently. I like playing games to forget but I am...just not ready to let myself feel better. I know that it's terrible. It does suck. [Sigh. Ugh, he hates this, it's making him feel awkward.]
I don't know if you can relate to this, but it feels in poor taste to play games and think "yes this is so much better" after killing my sister. I can't just think about Monster World when that awful man admitted to helping push me down a path that I didn't want! Because I'm angry, and I'm sad. I need to feel that.
I guess I need to process it. But I can't.
[Aaaand now he's awkward again. You know, he doesn't mind the Ring-Spirit leaving right at that moment after all. This is stupid. He is wasting the spirit's time with this.]
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It's never going to stop.
[ His confused paddling ceases. He continues to turn a bit as the momentum slowly dissipates into the rest of the pond, but he has a long twisty neck and easily cranes it around to stare back at Ryou.
The Ring-Spirit may be in swan-form to avoid giving away his facial expressions, but the manic grin is audible. His voice is taking on an inhuman rasping quality. ]
You'll feel better while you play, and the instant you stop it'll all come right back~!
"Processing" won't change anything - you're angry and sad, and you'll stay angry and sad, and it'll get worse~! H-haha-ha-hahah-ha-! [ Abruptly, the swan takes wing. The laughter's just getting more unhinged.
It's clear he means to fly off, but he hasn't gotten far yet, if Ryou still wants to engage with uh.
This. ]