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[softspokenlandlord]

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[softspokenlandlord]

Sorry.

[He doesn't sound it.]

And yes, I have consciously used it. I used it to destroy mannequins in the mall and push the Ring-Spirit back into something when I last spoke with him. Actually, truth be told, that may have been instinctual.

Everything else is just because I don't like being a shade in principle. If we take it to its root problem, rather than what I just said, then I don't want to be a shade because things like the possession do remind me of something unpleasant. Being a shadow creature also reminds me of the same unpleasant thing.

[Take a guess what the unpleasant thing is. Go ahead. Either way, this conversation is probably somewhat frustrating when Ryou doesn't react to negative reactions like eye-rolling and sneering, as it turned out.]

Is that a more acceptable answer?

[noasark]

Hn. That's a little more acceptable yes- the problem becomes something other than you after all. [The less self-deprecation there is, the better. Ahh, but he's brought up a neat point...]

...Have you considered a 'swap'?

[softspokenlandlord]

A...swap?

[Ryou actually blinks in confusion. It's...something that's devoid of general emotion as par for the course, but it's something all the same.]

[noasark]

Ah- yes, some people ask Mana to do that. It costs a fair amount but... [Mm, he shrugs.] I've never seen the need.

did someone say OLD TAGS?? no one? Too bad!

[softspokenlandlord]

No, I don't imagine you would. You seem at home in your body.

[It's not a bad thing. It's just not where Ryou's at in his Ryslig tenure at this point. Noa's been here for longer though, it's different for him, right?]

[noasark]

Hmhmmm~ I've admittedly had adjustments made- I couldn't originally use my thumbs, I had to go to Mana for that one.

But yes- ultimately it's something you would want to think about before commiting to it...but it's worth looking into. After all- human transformations are always some form of temporary basis, while any monster transformation is, well.

Another monster.

[softspokenlandlord]

I might have to look into it. For now, there's nothing to worry about. I can't say that I care if I'm a shade. Yes, there are the reasons I listed for you, but those are reasons that I felt before, and not any reason I have for why I hate myself now.

[He shrugs. No emotions. No care. He's just vibing.]

[noasark]

I have a suspicion that you'll be feeling plenty once whatever this is wears off.

[A pause, and he narrows his eyes.] Do you hate yourself right now?

[softspokenlandlord]

My apologies. I should clarify--I don't really hate myself right now. I don't feel any particular way or the other, what I meant was that the reasons I gave you are how I felt prior, not how I feel.

But I'm sure that once I can feel again, things will become complicated.

That's normal, right?

[Ryou no.]

[noasark]

Well that's good to hear at least.

[Good. 'Good'.

Erm.] ....I don't think hating oneself is 'normal' exactly, but it's not something that's so abnormal that it's something to worry about beyond what it is... The ideal is that you don't hate yourself obviously, but I wouldn't say it's a 'unique' feeling in any case.